A time comes in every person’s life where the act of revenge deems to be something more than just another hurtful emotion accompanying anger. The cliché would suffice in the exploration that revenge will indeed get you nowhere. I disagree totally. Revenge if taken subtly yet direct helps boost a sense of self importance. That very self importance being the main threat from parties with the intent of manipulation.
I decided a while back to undertake an experiment with some people wanting to come into my life. More out of boredom than anything else. It’s very funny to unmask those people who walk around with a sense that they are hidden from the world. I always find it interesting as to what I’ll find beneath the mask.
Take for example the first person I really loved. She was hard as anything with an outer shell that would put even a veteran war fighter to shame. To my surprise I found something more to this girl, this softness and love which I will forever be grateful for. I’m talking about someone with a stack of morals and ethical behavior that reaches towards the sky and beyond. Of course mistakes are made as each person tries to find their way in life but this solid foundation which many people try to find is all ready laid down. She stood by me in times unbearable, although younger she was the one who inspired me to make something more than what I was becoming. It always amazes me how people can still surprise me. Even the other day, a couple of weeks ago she was more than my friend when I was breaking, she was my guardian angel.
She is fire.
Then of course you find the people whose intentions are not known to anyone but themselves. Those people who wear their masks when in reality there is nothing other to them than their masks. I had to find that out the hard way. Sometimes a person wants to see more to another when in fact only an emptiness looms. Somewhere along the line you are swept with them into the tides of ignorance and swallowed into a black hole. It is only when the storm calms that one see’s how young you really were to believe their words.
Now even though this is not the first time something like this has happened to me it is the last time I will allow it. Thing is, five, ten years will go by and they will still exist in the same little world they created for themselves. A person of repetition bores everybody and maybe they will wake up someday with an epiphany and change. Until then I smile at my sweet revenge of happiness. I have better things to do than wait for change. I’ve been waiting for years, for change in this country, a futile wait which I find will amount to nothing at the moment.
As I’m typing this the Zuma decision is blaring around the newsroom. I can all ready predict the outcome. The bastard won’t stand trial. He’ll just continue on his way as a people pleaser and corrupt rapist. A decision to drop the charges would end a long legal battle that had raised doubts over Zuma's ability to govern Africa's biggest economy. He denies wrongdoing and says he is the victim of a political conspiracy. The National Prosecuting Authority (NPA) charged Zuma with corruption, fraud, money laundering and racketeering on December 28, 2007, eight days after he won the ANC leadership by defeating then-President Thabo Mbeki.
Election d-day is the 22nd of April and I will go vote even though I know Zuma is going to win. Reason being? Then I’m allowed to bitch at the government because I actually did vote for change.
I’m done with the white guilt. Amandla! We need change. Not only the whities but all of us. Someone very close to my heart said it the way it is, Zuma will be our Bush. I’ll add on to it by noting that the only war that will happen, is the war boiling within the country. It’s surging, let’s just hope it doesn't spill over.